I hate how I bring myself down whenever I’m happy! Ugh!
Sometimes I let people hurt me and say terrible things about me and not do anything about it because I feel like I deserve it. I just stand there feeling like shit and I don’t say a fucking thing!
I never feel good enough for anything and I mean ANYTHING! I don’t feel good enough for love, happiness, friends, or life itself most of the time. And I have thought of killing myself many times before and I have come extremely close to pulling it off before.
I wanna be perfect. I know that I will never be perfect, though. I’m not very pretty or attractive for that matter. I’m not very funny at all and I don’t have any particular talents or abilities.
I’m just a short, chubby, ugly girl who no one takes seriously. I wish I was important. Or loved. Or just… Brave… Brave to be myself and not care. Brave to let go of the terrible things that have happened to me. Brave to venture on without stressing about the unknown. Brave to let people in.
But I’m not…
trying to ruin marriage again are we
LMFAO I FUCKING DIED!!!!^^^
omg maybe he lied to protect us from asylum?
i think he meant 14 hours
HA more like 14 days